So many nights I can't fall asleep if I am just alone by myself. It's already 1:oo AM, and I am still wide awake and I don't know why... I assure myself everything is ok! I tried to lay in bed and fall asleep but I just fool myself. But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right. Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal. Several days ago, why I can sleep while my husband beside me? (he's working night shift)

Perhaps it's just a touch from him I long for. charottt ni manang! jek jek jek.. Yes, that's it! And yet I must be strong. Well, can't sleep if I can't hold him, my arms around him..

He is Turd the oldest dog of my husband. He is smart but not so active b/c of his age. He's 16 years old. Can you imagine that? It's so rare now a days that dogs can live longer. He is our inside dog. We used to put him outside to pee or to crap. He's well trained but there are times that he can't hold it and just give up on it into the floor.

Turd who always there for me everywhere I go, when I go to the bath room, bed room and etc. he's just like my tail that I couldn't get rid of him. Sometimes I almost step on him b/c he kept following me, perhaps too much but I realized he just love being with me or he just want to guard me. I love this dog though we didn't spend much time with him but Turd is always there for us. Our tiny, cuddly little Turdy.

Thursday was our day! we both celebrated our birthdays though mine is one week ahead, yet we decided to celebrate as one. We went to Hot Springs, AR where we both enjoy our moments together. Hot Springs looks like France... just for what I have seen on T.V. I keep comparing it to the places here and wish we could move there.. jek jek wish ko lang! We spent the whole day around the Hot Springs. Eventhough we had fight before we leave at home but we fixed it! And we are both happy after all. And now he is 37 and I am 22, I feel like I am getting so old... I don't wanna get old honestly, but nobody can stop it lol. Well, I guess I'll just live life to the fullest while young and kicking! jek jek

Anyway, this is the first birthday that I am with the man I love b/c I've been celebrating my birthday alone except with my family.

He always told me before that he is struggling b/c  of his Phone Bill but "you all worth every penny" he said.  And now I am here, I still used the phone for international calls for me to able to talk to my family back home in Philippines but at least not often as he used to be.

I am lazy kind of person but when I saw some of my photos, gggrrrr I often screamed of it! know why? b/c I am so freaking fat! And I love wearing shorts all the time and one thing that pissed me off, it's just so tight... Then I started doing Yoga at least once a day.

You may always hear me saying 'I love you' but I am not satisfied. I always miss you every time you're not with me. Every turn I make that you're not around, I am officially missing you. Thank you for being my friend, my best friend, my boyfriend, my husband and everything. And I couldn't ask for more.

Just as a poet needs inspiration to write a masterpiece,

I NEED YOU...

Just as an artist needs a subject for his work of art,

I NEED YOU...

Just as a teacher needs a pupil to mold into greatness,

I NEED YOU...

Just as a composer needs a theme to create a timeless

melody,

I NEED YOU...

Advance Happy Birthday!

Is it farting makes someone you love laugh??? hahaha

In a desperate attempt to save his rapidly failing used car dealership, Ben Selleck hires a crack team of "car mercenaries" to ramp up sales during the Fourth of July weekend. Led by the fast-talking, foul-mouthed, self-assured Don "The Goods" Ready, the group has three days to sell over 200 cars. But as Don undertakes his newest mission, and quickly falls for the boss's daughter Ivy, he realizes he'll have to trust more than his cars and his crafty skills in deceit to make a success out of the daunting weekend.

This is a story of boy meets girl, begins the wry, probing narrator of '500 Days of Summer,' and with that the film takes off at breakneck speed into a funny, true-to-life and unique dissection of the unruly and unpredictable year-and-a-half of one young man's no-holds-barred love affair.

Tom, the boy, still believes, even in this cynical modern world, in the notion of a transforming, cosmically destined, lightning-strikes-once kind of love. Summer, the girl, doesn't. Not at all. But that doesn't stop Tom from going after her, again and again, like a modern Don Quixote, with all his might and courage. Suddenly, Tom is in love not just with a lovely, witty, intelligent woman - not that he minds any of that - but with the very idea of Summer, the very idea of a love that still has the power to shock the heart and stop the world.

Anyway, my hubby loves this movie b/c he could relate it to his past life. It is really a good movie. And so far, it was another enjoyable tuesday hangout.

G-Force 3-D

Honestly guys, It's my first time watching 3-D. I am a movie lover but in my island Cebu, we don't have 3-D there I guess. All I've heard that was only in Manila. Anyway, I did had fun yesterday with my husband. Dinner for a while at Wings Stop then watched these couple movies. I've been longing to watch the G Force but everytime were in the theater, we always miss the time but last night was a good timing for us! When I saw the G Force thriller, it made me laugh... juz because this 3 lil mice saying... "poop in his hand" 2 times! that was soooooo cute!

District 9

The tension between the aliens and the humans comes to a head when an MNU field operative, Wikus van der Merwe, contract a mysterious virus that begins changing his DNA. Wikus quickly becomes the most hunted man in the world, as well as the most valuable he is the key to unlocking the secrets of alien tech. Ostracized and friendless, there is only one place left for him to hide: District 9.

@ Wings Stop

Hickory Smoked BBQ

Lemon Pepper

This is about how I learned to forget, but not to forgive.  And how to forgive, but not to forget. Month of February was a month for greatness for everyone. For me, it was hell on earth. 11 months ago, I am engaged with my husband. He came over  3 times to see me. The first visit was so wonderful but I didn't put in my mind that once you have a foreigner, most of the people thinks that you are super duper RICH! though you're not! Last Christmas, I supposed to stay at home in the province and waiting my interview schedule. As a months goes by...

 someone just want a favor so I traveled from the province to the city.  I went to one of my relatives house, tried to do some arrangement and agreement.  A relative that I used to run when my father's house was burnt down.  We both need a house to lived for temporarily so that my father could keep working and I could also continue my study. I stayed there for months until my father wants me to come back to his new little home. 

I got home from the province and I took my sister with me to that relatives house and start our conversation. The agreement wasssss, asked the money  to her parents for a cake that worth 3k... but all they see in me is "DOLLARS". Her mother said that 'WE HELPED YOU WHEN YOU WERE NOTHING AND NOW YOU GOT MONEY, IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO PAY US BACK!" 3 times...gi boy2x man hinoon.. I hated to be treated like that.. you know, my parents didn't even give a damn word like that?! how much more somebody just helped you for something??? On that time, I was out of budget, the money that I had left was only 1 thousand and I don't want to asked money to my fiance because I still have my parents that can feed me. So I explained to her that I don't have enough money and I cannot afford that. But hey, she didn't even waste any time listening to me! Later on, we got home and I did something that is really necessary. I talked to the sales lady who worked at the bakery about that cake that they'll just pay it after 3 days before the birthday .

When that birthday was over, I packed my bag and I decided to go home to the province nga naay gi bawon nga sakit sa dughan. I am just a human... need to unwind. I used to talked to my husband on that time everyday. He tried to cheer me up. He was the hope, the clown just to make me happy. So he decided to go back to pinas again to forget what happened. When he arrived in Cebu, we didn't waste any time, we flew right away to Boracay for 10 days vacation. There my life was quiet, my life was full of happiness being with my husband. When that vacation was over, he flew back to the USA and the problem that I involved was getting worse. 

My friendster account was hacked and somebody's changing my shout-out.. she wrote like "I am just after the money of my foreigner. Plus, 3 of my yahoo messenger was hacked and my email addresses too.  I don't have any Idea on that time but just rely on God and I do believe in KARMA! She thought that she could poisoned my husbands brain to get rid of me by just hacking and changing every text on my friendster. I just knew it when one of my closest friend text me " wui mariz, dili ka lainan sa imong gi panulti sa imong friendster?".. And my friend proved it thru her friendsters account. Just mad when I ignore all of her messages because I really really feel bad. I pained like hell! Wala pa sya nakuntinto huh? gi apil2x pa nya akong ginikanan.. og uban pang sakit nga istorya!

The hacker was just cousin that got married to a 54 year old caucasian. according to my husband, she is sooo  pathetic and jealous...... And am not afraid of her warning.. God only knows what you are! I thought you were a GOd fearing because you used to pray every night holding with a rosary and we didn't know that you were such a DEVIL INSIDE! And no matter what effort you will try to ruined my life and relationship, you'll never win! And one month later, I still remember those day. My mother told me to do something but I said no! She might haven't meet someone that is an island, well, that's gonna be me! OVER MY DEAD BODY!

May 5th was my interview at the US embassy in Manila with my husband and I passed my interview with the helped of God. And the next following days, I flew from Phils. to USA and fulfill my destiny. 

Proud Ate as ever as I can be... I am so happy that she got a job that really what she wanted and and I thought you couldn't get it b/c you were so picky unlike me when I was a fresh grad. Eventhough she got failed sometimes in finding a good job, there's always a place that really meant for her. She have waited for this moment. Now, at last, it has come true. She have finally reached the summit, and now am quite proud of her.. Always remember that am always here for you, no matter what... You are worthy of this triumph. I know sis that you had trained for countless hours, never knowing where the outcome would lead, when this day was done.

She passed her interview and written exam in a prestigious company, Innodata. When she got a call from the company, letting her know passed and have to prepare about her requirements, she just jump and jump and jump.. And as I've told her..'try and try until you succeed.' She went to the province to unwind b/c she gave up and don't wanna expect no more. But sometimes life is such a joke. Things will just come by when you least expect it!

You have longed for this occasion and at last, it has arrived.

Now you stand above all others, with heart and soul revived

From this time, you'll travel onward towards you future aspirations.

But this day, enjoy your moment...

With my warm congratulations.

The AMA comsci students!

Being a Bitch means.... I stand up for myself and my beliefs, I stand up for those I love.. I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things the way I won't compromise whats in my heart, I live my life by 'My Way', I won't allow anyone to step on me, I refuse to tolerate injustice. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be me. So try to stomp on me, douse my inner flame, squash every ounce of beauty I hold w/in... you won't succeed. And if that makes me a Bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and I'm proud to be a "BITCH".

P.S. Nobody called me 'BITCH' yet but well, just in case.... wuahahahahaha! 

I've been chasing crazy dogs of ours this afternoon. We have 17 dogsss.. can you imagine that??? 12 are in the fence outside, 1 is in the tree, but we have 4 dogs inside the house and 3 of them are girls that been stayed and sleep inside their kennel. So when I put them outside to pee, one of them run away... she was Zenny, she's so strong and aggressive dog that really drives me crazy. I tried to chase her, but I can't.. because am afraid that the other dog can run away too.. but well, I guess I've been played by my own 'DESTINY'... and one dog just gone w/o a blink of my eye and I just saw her running over the woods. I freaked out and don't know what to do. I grab my cellphone and tried to dial my hubby's work no. but I was busy thinking what-to-do. I run outside the house and chase them... they've been chasing the other animals too, like goats and chicken! shit shit shit stop stop stop... is all I can scream at them. I was so scared to death when Zenny got so close to our male dog Bouncer, were gonna have another 17 puppies if I will not stop them.... so it's gonna be 34 all in all dogsss in our house!? I tried to catch even just one of them and thanks god the other dog came to me and I grabbed her collar and put her in the kennel. So Zenny was my big big problem, she didn't listen to me... she's getting closer to the male dog...  trying to seduce Bouncer... egat jud nga iro! I am sweating all over my body just chasing that Zenny.. And to make this story short? I bend on my knees and tears all over my cheeks and say.... piskot mani wui.. mao nani, ngano ni enter?! nobody can help me but just myself alone. I almost give up! but when I decided to go back inside the house, finally Zenny followed me and run straight to her kennel. And finally I feel better, breath better... But still, I can't deny the fact that today is really my day! huhuhu I also locked myself outside when I tried to mow the grass and just find out when I needed to get something to drink.... I've waited for almost one hour for my husband to wake up and helped me... OMG! Wattta day..=(

But one thing I am so mad about is when I tell my husband about the story, he just laughed out loud ggggggggrrrrrr whatever.. anyway, I guess I'll dedicate this song to myself.. here it goes..

I have a confession to make; I used to be a player.