When I was browsing on You Tube, I clicked the video of Angel Locsin on Boy and Kris talk show and one of the singer sung "Angels brought me here". OMG! I was so helpless and clueless about it! It reminds me of my past how crazy I was during my high school days about this love song... I played this song many times and wishing that it would be nice if this could happen in real life of mine. I thought I couldn't reach my ultimate dream (to become a legal wife of a caucasian) isn't that insane????? guys are everywhere but you can't blame me if my taste is caucasian.

I talked to my husband recently on the phone and he asked me what am doing and I just told him that just "nothing"! and I didn't told him about my post... all my desires, lustiness towards caucasian, back when I was in high school... that seem like I am floating in the air, and when I can hear these love song I went crazy... so I've searched this song for my bana, for him to know how much he meant to me.

I miss my mother.... the way she used to be.. I used to be a mama's girl!

I miss your voice that used to softly sing my special lullaby.
I miss your hands that used to hold me when I was scared.
I miss your eyes that would bring me to ease each time I stared into them.
I miss your nicknames you gave me when I would act bad.
I miss you falling asleep to your heartbeat when I would lay my head upon your chest.
I miss the prayers we taught me when we prayed together.
I miss the "I love you's" & "Be careful's" everyday.
I miss the "Good Morning" & "Good night's".
I miss our tickle fights.
I miss our arguments knowing you were always right.
I miss you........the way you once were
I told my husband once, "wish I just stay as a baby so that forever i'm on my mothers arms... and he felt bad for a while coz he thought I don't wanna be with him which is not true.. I am just missing my mother.

Naloloka na talaga ang lola, I've been trying to make my blog look cool but it goes to uncool! Since I started blogging, I designed my blog on mah own, finding ways to beautify it, making it more attractive but somehow I am so confused, it's about my link badge. I adore mostly ate Jan's blog, some old bloggers too and etc. in fact I am impressed and wondering how they did it! (html badge thingy) ggggggrrrrr

Well, Egat relax! hhhmm so I decided to switch to Facebook and play "farmville" and when I saw my character with a brown hair, uhhhh I remember this next week we're going out and go to the Salon for my hairrr... yeeehhaaaw! I was quite excited then. Gonna change my image este hair lang di i! And after all, am not worried about it anymore.... no more!

I realized today that I am not nothing.... I am something that I can be proud of myself, to fulfill my dreams and achieve my goals, failure can possibly exist but it's an option. It only matters of doing, trying,, and though the road may be long, it will be traversed if I just keep walking, in my own way at may own pace.

God Bless to all....

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We, bloggers come from different nationalities all over the world. It is such a wonder that we are united because of blogging. This tag is made to know the nationality you are proud to have. I am enjoining all the bloggers to join this tag. Let us see how long we can make this list.

Here are the rules:

1. Copy this entire post but appropriately acknowledge the tag giver.

2. Link your and your blog's name (that is, put your and your blog's name plus the URL) and add the nationality that you have e. g Filipino, Finnish, American, Canadian, etc.)

3. Tag as many bloggers as you can so we can generate a long list here.

4. Return here and give me a comment or a message to include you in the masterlist.

5. If you have multiple blogs, you may copy this tag in all your sites but please include only one blog of yours in each post.

6. Update your masterlist by coming back here

7. This tag will not only help us know the bloggers we keep in touch in the blogosphere but will also help build traffic to our sites.

MASTERLIST: (List down your nationality here. The first one has been done for you).

1. Ate Jan of Insights
2. Egat's Journal where Ideas meet

1. Wilyo of blekenyek

1. Charlie of Challeechallee

Now, I am passing this tag to Ianne of Pinknote's Diary, Chiklets of My orange vest, Ganda of Ihasta la vesta me amor,Saul krisna of Why me?, Shy of A Journey of Life, Deejay of Deejay's PAP

To all the bloggers out there, come and join the "Link From Blog".... Simply click the photo and register right away. I've got this one not a long time ago but I've been busy and I didn't follow the directions so It seem so late to advertise this but now I got a chance posting this to my blog... Good Luck!

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It's funny how many people that are impatient realize that they are and they are really sorry for it, but can't seem to overcome it. I'm getting a lot better, I used to be much more impatient than I am now but i still have many problems with it... my husband keep telling me to be patient sometimes, Am only impatient in some situations. ... I am very impatient to the things that I really want so bad.. I'm not a very nice person to be around when I'm stressed out or aggravated that this is not good at all.. but you know, this is an attitude that really you can't keep on track... Do you think this is insane?

I received a tag from my friend shy and thanks for tagging me gurl...

Do you think you're hot?
yeah I am! in fact, "I am gettin s00o hot, I wanna take my clothes off..." whuahahaha

Upload your favorite picture..
I always want to put my husband's name on my body, actually I am planning to have a real tattoo somewhere in my ankle b/c I want the whole world knows how much I love him. These is just a Henna... (when were having fun in Boracay)

Why do you love this picture?
I love this picture b/c just like a song TATTOO.."just like a tattoo I'll always have you"... hhhmmm though it's not real but I'm gonna make it real.

When was the last time you eat Pizza?
I think 2 weeks ago, kalimot naku wui!

What is the latest song you've heard?
INSOMNIA by Craig David

What are you doing while working on this game?
Blog Hopping while having a cup of coffee

What is your favorite nick name?

What kind of people are you?
I am the kind of person that smiles a lot! Easy to be with and feisty.

What is your favorite song?
"It's my life" by Bon Jovi

What is your favorite food?
I love Japanese Food (sushi, chicken teriyake etc.) Chinese Food, Buwad with matching suka og sili... yummy!

What is the most stressful thing to you?
Travelling from Phils to America and vice versa

Mention the 3 must have items on you purse.
Cellphone, passport and sun glasses

What is your favorite color?

What is your not-fulfilled-yet dream?
To be a "Business women" riding in a shiny Ferrari... hahaha walay mo palag!

What is your favorite city to stay?
Of couse syudad sa mga Bisaya but wanna travel to Madrid someday! Ngita sa ko daghan wawart para ka afford kow.

Please tag other five friend of yours.
Saul Krisna

Guys, grab it now and Have a nice day!

I am not an optimist by nature. I have always looked at the worst scenario, gotten down by setbacks, fought to keep my sanity sometimes. Maybe b/c I feel very bad....
When I woke up this morning, something happened that really squeezing my chest tight. All I can think is grab the gun and shoot that thing but something on my mind tells me that "if I'm going to do that, the more I'll ruined the situation...." so I sat on my computer, refreshing my mind but I force myself to. I really really felt bad but I gotta be strong for my husband. I feel like I was in his shoes, I tried to be strong for him and praying up above to give me more strength to handle every trials that we have, strength to walk on ...when the way is dark and I am lost.

Our lives are so busy and sometimes we live so far from our families. We miss the relationships with them and often we do not even share important life events with them. If not actual distance then at least we must move closer in our hearts. As what the older people say, "no one will ever love us unconditionally like our family can." Agree????

Last night, I talked to my brother thru yahoo messenger. It's been a while we haven't spend time together since I moved to this country. It was night time here and day time there. He got a chance to get online while he's waiting for his next subject. And that was the time I first talk to him in a serious way. Several days ago, I talked to my mother on yahoo also, she really cried and I really hate to see her crying... she misses me so bad I know, coz I feel the same way too. My first week staying here was so horrible... kind of bizarre but talking to them on the phone really helped me a lot. Until I get used to see them online and hearing their voices.

Yesterday afternoon, I got a magazine of Victoria's Secret on my computer desk. My husband told me that maybe I should start seeking clothes for fall so he left me a magazine of Victoria's Secret. I have a few dresses, shirts etc. that is VS, but they will be useless this coming fall. Since fall is coming, I was just quite unhappy b/c for sure I'll suffer how cold inside and outside of our payag. And need more jackets on. ggggrrr but maybe I might love it because of the smells that you speak of; and also because things are dying, things that you don't have to take care of anymore, and the grass stops growing. (Am just lazy mowing the grass). But anyway, am kinda excited b/c we don't have fall season in the Philippines and hhhhmmm this is gonna be my first time to endure what really fall feels like.

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

So many nights I can't fall asleep if I am just alone by myself. It's already 1:oo AM, and I am still wide awake and I don't know why... I assure myself everything is ok! I tried to lay in bed and fall asleep but I just fool myself. But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right. Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal. Several days ago, why I can sleep while my husband beside me? (he's working night shift)
Perhaps it's just a touch from him I long for. charottt ni manang! jek jek jek.. Yes, that's it! And yet I must be strong. Well, can't sleep if I can't hold him, my arms around him..

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

(Insomnia by: Craig David)


Wednesday night, hubby and I went to Larry's Pizza for our dinner and we straight to the theater to watch a movie. But we search it first while we're on the way to the theater through his I-phone. And I think the movie Final Destination 4 is the best movie to watch since I've watched the whole series. This Final D4 is in 3D that really scares me to death.. The difference was.... I've watched the other part but it was just on DVD unlike this thing, OMG, It seems like it happened in front of me. Well, sounds "ignorance" but that movie was just sooooo scary. And one thing, I wasn't able to watch the whole thing b/c really I was shaking and sweating to death and all I can do is to hide to my hubby's side. And the deaths looks so painful than before. So guys, don't miss to watch it while it's still showing!

Been busy this past few days and don't have much time to spend into my computer.
I would like to thank Ms. Shy for this award though It's a little bit too late pero I tried not to forget this to post here. Thanks a lot.